I have so much to be grateful for today, not least of which are these guys:
I’m actually in Toronto right now so I have a lot to be grateful for. My family are here. My sister has made a beautiful home away from home for us, literally considering my family’s comfort and wellbeing in building her own family’s house. We’re grateful to be made to feel so at loved & at home here every time we visit.
I’m also here to visit and cheer up my mother, who has been trapped inside with hew own injury, a broken lower leg, since February. I’m grateful to have my mother still with us, and grateful to have a strong bond with her. My sister and I are both close with our mom, another relationship we’re lucky to have.
I’m also grateful for the family I have here to visit: my sister and I have a good relationship as adults, and I adore her daughters, my nieces, who are like little sisters to Ben (grateful for that, too). They’re beautiful, brilliant, strong, free creatures, each of whom displays emotions and intelligence in equally high amounts. My brother-in-law is a wonderful guy who is just fun to hang out with, as well as a great husband and father. My sister has a beautiful family, inside and out, and I’m so grateful to be only two hours away.
I’m listing out all this gratitude right now because it’s just hard to feel grateful for all these blessings when my foot looks like it lost a bar fight to someone a lot meaner:
From last night: my foot looks like a bloated drunk who got severely beaten up
I’m really trying for gratitude here, in the form of, “I’m grateful I’ve never had an injury worse than this”, but it hurts today after all the activity and exertion yesterday and I can’t go down stairs properly and anything that isn’t being trapped in bed with my foot up causes the fluids to rush back in a very painful way.
Still, the practice of gratitude does make me feel slightly better. Over the past year, I started using the Best SELF Journal: a daily entry in which I start and finish my day by listing 3 things I’m grateful for. Sounds like something out of an archived Well and Good article (“The Buzzy Reason These wellness Gurus Start Their Day with Gratitude – And How You Can Too”). It is, however, a legitimately proven tactic to improve mental wellbeing, so I have added it to my mental toolkit to deal with my depression.
Gratitude may not make up for missing out on physical activity, which is on the list of the Big Things That REALLY Help With Depression. Walking or running outside are big needle movers for mental wellbeing. It’s therefore extremely tempting not to be grateful for anything when I’m on Day 5 of hobbling about and don’t know how long this is going to take because I can run again without fear of messing my foot back up. The challenge is pushing past that self-pity and finding ways to be grateful that are not depending on my physical status.
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